THIS is your reason of addiction

Seriously, don’t bother reading. It felt right at this very moment.

This is probably one of those days where I feel completely emotional. Thoughts are very overwhelming and the more I think, the more I regret. I could just pen all the thoughts and it will never end. The mind of a 16 year old doesn't seem as naive as it should. I've given everything a LOT of thought and now, it all comes to one thing. One question, one hard-smacked fact to the face. And it's for me. No one else, except me.

They’re probably right. I’m the perfect person to be those poets with death wishes. Staring at the window waiting for words to come. Creating her own world, another one of them. Not like she doesn’t have a dark one already. A black cloud hanging above her head, repelling everything around her. I feel utterly bored and useless now. Pacing around the house wondering if there’s a happy ending to this.

How long more do I need to finally realize that we weren’t meant to be? With everything that comes in and out of life, there’s nothing I can do or control. Thing happen and end the way it should be. Never liked it and never had a choice. Nobody will ever tell me that I might win because if they do, I’ll tell them straight to the face that its bullshit. Overcoming circumstances are not what I do best, I fall each time deeper and deeper.

After all these years, its only right that I have a way out but life being life, it only drags me further. Now, its too late too actually pick up those pieces because I’m just waiting for the moment where I let go. So, since I’m already in it, why not appreciate the little joy that I find, if I do.

Seriously guys, THANKS!

My bunch of nice, insane friends were really sweet yesterday. =)

We went out yesterday for after-exams celebrations. Well, sort of. Wangsa Walk for karaoke. And yes, it sucks big time. Red box is…better. WAY better.

Had dinner at TGIF’S. It seemed like a normal dinner then when I thought we were going to get the bill or something, a cake walked pass us and turned out, its for us. So yeah. They celebrated me and Nikki’s birthday there. The whole stand-on-the-chair custom.

Conclusion: AWESOME!

Again, thanks!

Incubus’ latest compilation is pretty not bad. Suddenly drive sounds so familiar. =)

Seriously. Do check it out.

8 more doom days. And suddenly the week seem to pass really slowly. Dammit.

Btw dino, pool table! Remember!

A short update.

My slow moving achievements.

Remember my previous goal? Well, none accomplished. No surprise there.

Am still deciding whether to continue studying biology. Seriously. I don’t really care if enyzmes have low heat tolerance. 

And, who says the sixteenth birthday in a person’s life is sweet?

Well, fancy sitting for BM papers trying to make Maimon proud on a wednesday? How coincidental.

If you didn’t get that..

The first day of finals is the 21st which happens to be a wednesday. Maimon is the BM tution teacher and her classes are on wednesdays.

To the lame writers of that kiddy book who said:

-My love for you is like diarrhea. I just can’t hold it in.

Seriously, shoot yourself.

Chemistry for dummies.

Get me that book. Or if it doesn’t exist, someone create it.

I seriously don’t get the whole calculation part of chapter 7. Believe it or not, I spent 1 1/2 hours trying to do 10 OBJECTIVE questions. 

Someone, kill me. Heck I don’t know how people study for SPM and get all those A’s and I can’t even manage studying form 4 stuff.

Oh. Studying at home is a bad idea.

Just when the attractions are my distractions.

Yeah. I’m one of those people that feels sleepy when I see the bed.

Goal of the day:

- salts

- light

=)

I’ve been really enjoying staring at blogs instead of blogging myself. At that, expect frequent long time intervals between my posts.

The one week holiday of studying is about to end and I can proudly say,

“ So this is what it feels like to not go to school for a week when other people have to! “

Yeah, now I understand why Karin likes to skip school so much..its really,really fun. I should try it more often.

Now, 2 subjects done, 5 more to go. Any applause? Hell I don’t know how I’m gonna finish all those in a week and 2 days. Do you think its possible to finish 2 chapters of chemistry in a day?

Goals of the day:

- Don’t watch any shows/movie or whatnot.

- Get off the computer after lunch before lunch

- Finish that 2 chapters of chemistry

- No afternoon naps sleep

- No procrastinating (very unlike for that to happen)

Wish me luck.

Its aWHILE isn't it?

Really didn't realize that the last time I blogged was August 22nd. Tons of events happened in those 3 weeks and I'm slightly lazy to mention it.

Not gonna write anything else. Currently am typing this to the rhythm of hammers knocking on my head. I have a headache if you didn't get it.

Just finished typing a 6 page report for my trip to Cambodia. I really need some sleep.

=)

Yeah, before a 9 day break.

I'll be off today at 3pm. (Imaginary fans...ermm..ignore this)

I probably expect a whole lot of weird stuff bout me going about..since yesterday...yeah.

=)

What can I say?

Somehow the videos are quite blur. Sound wise I mean. Too much sound? Get the videos from Keith and Elaine then. Or on facebook. I bet someone's bound to post them up.

Yesterday was awesome. The day started off early and ended really late.

We went at 9am (ahem...paranoid people) but it was worth it. Lol. The gates opened at 3.30pm and thanks to Kal, Keith and their whole gang, we were at the front of the line. Rushed in. And apparently Christopher can run..well at least faster than me. (its the bag I tell you! Weighed me down)

Hmm..somehow I didn't get butt raped. Maybe its because the guy in front and behind me were butt raping people. =) Pity Keith.

After Estranged, there was total chaos at the front of the Red Zone. Everyone was pushing and the front was really packed. Sardines in a can can't describe it. A whole lot of molestation went on. So, Karin went out first. Then me and Nikki followed. The line there sucks. Couldn't even contact anyone.

We managed to find Karin after god knows how long. And at the end of the day, found everyone back.

But....the performances!!! They were all really good. The All-American Rejects! Dude. 5 songs. Boys like girls we're really good too.

Started off with some dude which I don't know and ended with Kasabian.

I really do hate the mosh pit people. They got all the stuff thrown from the stage. Damn it.

Lots of hot people too. =) (ahemm..Utt)

So the day ended with Mcd and watching a whole car of people getting drunk on coke. How is that possible? Lol.

Reached home at 1.45am. And I don't really remember what happened after I came back, but I woke up on the couch. Took me a few moments to realize that I slept on the couch with 17 hours of sweat and rain water.

Yes! I came home and went straight to sleep. Didn't even make it upstairs. Saw the couch and died there.

An unforgettable day. I'll make myself not forget it.

=)

See this?

dudeee..world stage ppl! Yes, I'm going.

Got the voucher like a week ago but am only blogging now. lol. So yes. Share the joy. If you're not going, make sure you do.